Before my surgery, my husband texted: “I want a divorce. I don’t need a sick wife.” The patient in the next bed comforted me. “If I survive this, we should get married,” I said. He nodded. A nurse gasped: “Any idea who you just asked?” – usnews

“Morning,” he said.

“Morning,” I replied, beginning to unpack my toothbrush and my bag of apples.

We didn’t talk. We didn’t fill the space with noise. He went back to his book, and I climbed into my bed, staring at a small crack in the ceiling that looked like a winding river. The fear was a physical entity now, settling under my ribs, rising to my throat whenever I thought of the mask and the count to ten.

Night fell early. Outside, the first snow began to fall—the kind you can’t see but can hear in the muffled, cotton-wrapped silence of the streets. I lay awake, my eyes wide in the darkness.

“Scared?” a low voice asked from the other bed.

Mark wasn’t asleep. His breathing was too deliberate.

“Yes,” I answered, my voice a mere splinter of sound.

“I was scared, too,” he said. “Three years ago, when I was first in a room like this.”

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