Curiously, when the weight of the diagnosis finally sank beneath my skin, my first thought hadn’t been of Evan Morris, my husband of eight years. I thought of my classroom. I thought of Ben, who had finally conquered his stutter and begun to read with a lilting fluency. I thought of Paige, whose shoelaces were perpetually untied and whose tongue was sharp enough to cut glass. I thought of little Dany, who had spent all of September weeping at the door and now raced into the room each morning like a conqueror.
I wondered who would explain the nuances of verb tenses to them. I wondered who would wait for Dany at the door. That I thought of them instead of the man who shared my bed said everything about my marriage. It likely said too much.
Cliffhanger: As the bus pulled up to the sterile curb of the clinic, I realized I hadn’t received a single text from Evan all morning, and the silence from my own home felt heavier than the surgery awaiting me.
