It was Emily.
The person I could sit quietly with for hours without feeling uncomfortable.
One night we were sitting in the yard.
Emily looked at me and said,
“You know something?” When I’m with you, I never feel like I have to pretend to be someone else.
I smiled.
“And when I’m with you, for the first time in a long time I don’t feel like anyone is waiting for me to die.
She’s not laughing.
Instead, he put his hand on mine.
I immediately pulled my hand.
“Emily…
I know what you’re thinking.
I am much older than you.
I know.
People will talk.
She smiled.
“People were talking before.
I told him I never wanted me to feel like he owed me something.
Not for the operation.
Not for the job.
Not for my help.
Emily looked at me for a long time.
Then he said the words that finally broke down all the barriers I had still raised around me.
“If I lost all your money tomorrow, the next day I would be here again.
I couldn’t answer.
For almost a year we just went out together.
We did normal things.